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I love you more than you can understand.
I miss you more than anything.
I want you back.
you're the first ive ever trusted.
I miss you.
im so sorry.
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I really appreciate that you tried.
but im sorry for ruin everything.
you were everything id ever wanted.
but youre gone now.
im so sorry.
but I cant actually see you with her.
I feel crashed.
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im sorry for everything ive done to you.
I miss you so bad, and I wont let you go.
I will keep you in my heart forever.
even if you'll never know it.
I really miss you but you wont understand.
you have a new one now.
the right one.
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why cant you just give me a second chance?
I know that ive messed everything up.
but I regret everything I did to you.
you say that you have forgiven me, but I dont believe you.
please give me a second chance.
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that say that time heal all wounds.
but I dont believe them.
ive waited for the day when I dont feel the pain you made.
but its still here.
like a big black hole, it grows bigger and bigger.
im suffering.
youve given me all your shit.
and you will never help me like ive helped you.
thanks for nothing.
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I give up.
I give up tvr searching for my love.
im not old.
just a teenager.
but I still have feelings.
people always tell me that it will get better one day.
and youve waited for that day to light up your day...
but its still to far away.
yes, I want it to be good in the future.
but if youre sad now, it will get harder to get back happiness later.
why do everyone get love except from me.
whats wrong with me?
and stop saying: "nothing my darling<3 "
cause if nothing's wrong.
why havent I got any love?
tell me why then...
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kärlek är en ond cirkel.
man såras allt för ofta.
man tror att man hittat rätt men PANG(!) så är man "död"...
om & om igen...
det är klart att konflikter uppstår...
men det är nt det jag vill peka på..
att förstå att man nt orkar bli bränd.
det är det bara du själv som förstår.
jag ger upp.
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jag saknar dej så otroligt mycket.
pga den där är du borta.
det jag känner just nu, är nog avundsjuka.
jag vill ha dej tillbaka.
jag vill vara hon!
kom tillbaka!
jag klarar mig inte utan dej!
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snälla.
hjälp!!!
jag saknar dej enormt.
du var allt för mig!
F*N

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